Since I Am Loved

When I joined DW, I knew this was the right place for me. I am a long-form yapper first and foremost, so out of all social networks I've ever been on, this has been the best for me and remains so.

I did mention in a previous post that I joined Pillowfort as well. That was a short lived moment. As it turns out, my main desire was not to join a mirror of Tumblr, it was really to find the space for me that feels the most natural to post on, and that place remains DW. As my wife says, Tumblr is for shower thoughts, and I don't do shower thoughts. I don't even think in the shower! Shower is the place I either don't think at all or think of the next step in the washing routine. It's where thoughts go down the drain, never to resurface again. Thoughts right before sleep though... I digress.

I haven't deleted my PF account yet. I don't know if I will, it might be useful to keep, but I'm not present at all on it. I might delete it later on though.

All this to say, my only online "priority" is DW. This is where I feel the most at ease, so I have no reason to be anywhere else. Besides, I have no fear of losing any of my writing through a disappearance of the website since I meticulously copy and paste all my writing in a word doc (well, libre office doc) monthly. At most, I might lose my most recent posts, but I also keep all the drafts on Obsidian where I write everything first, so the fear is moot. Decentralization is good practice, but turns out it's not the practice for me. And if DW does die one day, I'll figure out where to go from there, if I go anywhere at all.

When I was in a polyamorous relationship, I heard of the term poly-saturated, which pretty much changed the way that I view relationships in general. As it turns out, I get saturated really fast in any kind of relationships. I prefer monogamy, and keeping my friend groups small, and that is reflected in how I like to be online as well. I should've honestly known, considering I only follow less than 30 blogs on Tumblr, and around 6 of them are my wife's sideblogs XD. Like most good things in my life, I like things slow and steady. That applies to reading and writing as well as everything else. And it's really hard to keep in mind when the rest of the world is so fast. But I'm getting there.

Keeping DW as my only social network also means I have chosen to be more conscientious of how long my reading list is. I've had a moment earlier last month when I felt somewhat paralyzed by the amount of posts waiting for me. Communities went out first, and I have also now unsubscribed to friending communities so I can focus first and foremost on the people I'm already subscribed to and want to maintain contact with. For now, I just go with the flow, aware that the people that I think are right for me might not feel the same way about me and vice versa. I'm learning not to take it personally, to feel comfortable in the occasional disappointments that might produce. And I'm learning to welcome life with patience. Slow and steady. That's the mantra. Some good things in life are meant to rattle our world with a bang. But most of them follow the rhythm of the seasons, years in the making. This is the rhythm I want to follow in my own life.

All this to say, I'm done playing the social media hopping game. I'm here now. That's where it feels the most natural for me to be. Turns out I'm social media monogamous too XD.